Too Far Behind to Catch Up

Since my last real post so much has happened. I've fallen way behind in my blogging. I can't possibly keep up without boring you more than I already am. And finals are breathing down my neck.

Here are the highlights:

TobyKeith continues to be a real sweetheart. I could seriously fall for him if.... IF he were closer, IF he didn't live in the boonies, IF he could dance, IF he were a tad more outgoing.... There just seem to be some lifestyle differences. I can't see myself as a farm wife. I can't see him living in the city. I can see myself cuddling up with him in front of a fire in the living room.

I had the talk about my expectations in dating with Toby. you remember? The one about I'm-not-ready-for-sex-so-if-that's-what-you're-after-look-somewhere-else. While not a virgin, he seemed OK with it. Of course he said he was OK with it, but I think he might have meant it. He's coming late this afternoon and --I think-- staying over. I'll let you know.

I went to Colorado for Thanksgiving. My sister is great. I love her. We've talked on the phone just about every day since Thanksgiving. We used to email a lot, but we've been talking lately. My family is meeting at her house for Christmas. My mom and dad are going to be there, too. I haven't seen them since the summer, so I miss them.

I've visited KU a couple of times. I've talked with a couple of professors that I will have. They do have a lot more opportunities there, but a lot less chance for one-on-one help. I really like the culture there, though. I think I need the change. I talked to my dad about it, and he thinks it is a good move. Mom wanted me to wait until the end of the year, but I've got to get out of this place. I'm transferring at semester.

I've made a deal with my roomies to pay my rent for the rest of the year, but none of the utilities. The phone is in my name, but nothing else. They will keep that and pay the bill (I hope). I plan to come back for a few weekends, so I'll still stay there. Since my room was the worst one there anyway, they aren't lining up to get it.

I've mentioned the dude from Marketing, who wants to study. After about the fourth study date with no mention of anything more than studying, I was confused. There seemed to be some chemistry there, but he didn't seem to be pursuing anything. I thought I was giving good hints, but...... Last week he came over to study. After studying he sat down on the couch. I sat down sorta next to him, with one leg up on the sofa, trying to be extra cute and slightly flirtatious. I'm not quite sure how it happened, but half an hour later I was laying down on the sofa with my head on his lap looking straight up his nostrils (which needed a slight clip, I might add). Still, he kept one arm on the arm of the sofa, and the other on the sofa's back (i.e., not on me). We talked. I watched mostly him while he watched TV. Finally, I reached up and grabbed his hand, pulling it down and holding hands with him. Finally he switched his focus away from TV and on me. We stayed there until Colbert was over. Afterwards he got up to leave, and only gave me a hug on his way out. I'm officially dazed.